I'm sorry that I nor perfect neither the best. Even though you are consoling me but I can see in your eyes that I'm just a little poor boy. a boy that can't do his own stuff, more contagiously for sure can't take care of anyone else.
Poor little boy that has to hurts himself in order to take care of others feeling. Missionary should be done so that he can find his way to home, babysitting his own self like no one should be close to him.
Little oh Little Boy. You should be stronger, wiser and gentler so that you can take care of yourself. When the time comes, you will leave the one that always make you feel so bad and you can be yourself.
But, it only will happen if you are really determined to be that way.